Think Before They Speak

I really wish people would take under consideration what they say. I have had some hurtful things said to me about my weight whether intentionally or unintentionally.

For instance I was leaving work the other day and my co-workers had bought ice cream for every one to enjoy. I decided to pass on the ice cream because I have been trying hard to eat healthier. Well when my co-worker found out, they acted like they couldn't believe I turned down ice cream because I was fat. I mean they were in total shock. It hurt my feelings.

I wished sometimes people would think before they speak.

Hard Weekend and a Hammock

I am having a hard weekend. Watching my fat ass fall out of a hammock today was not a self esteem booster. I had the pleasure of seeing myself in a glass door once again. I felt like I was looking in a freaking funhouse mirror because I was so huge. Sometimes old habits die hard and I find myself trying not to fall back into those old habits. This weekend has been really sad and I have very little appetite.

Not Giving Up

I still haven't given up my quest. I was able to walk about 2 miles the other day. I have found myself trying to do some outdoor activities as well. Whether its tossing a football or hitting a volleyball. My body aches so bad afterwards that I want to cry but I am not giving up. I want to see progress, and I want to get healthy. I know I am never going to be a size 2 but I don't want to be the way I am.

Update

Things are going great I have good days and I have bad days. I am still exercising and trying to eat healthy. I am striving to feel good about me regardless of what is going on around me. Being positive is not always easy but it becomes necessary. I don't know if I have lost any weight but it doesn't matter as long as I am feeling better about me.

Not Quick Enough

I have been trying really hard to keep my new healthy lifestyle rolling. Sometimes no matter how hard I try I still feel disgusted. It's like I can't drop the weight quick enough, or at least not as quick as I would like to. I still am not ready to throw in the towel. I can't give up and I won't give up even if it is not quick enough in my eyes.

Making Strides

I have been walking and exercising everyday. I feel as if I am making small strides. I have even tried to eliminate all the soda's from my daily routine, and drink juice or water. I have avoided the ice cream and sweets thrown in my face at work. I am starting to feel healthier. I am starting to feel better about myself and that is progress.