History

Last night I lay in bed thinking about my childhood and history. I wanted to see if there was a key to how I got this way. I remember when I was a small child my grandmother was constantly nagging me to eat, because I was a really active child and did not want to stop to eat. I also remember getting seconds as a child at a family function and my grandfather nagging me for doing so. I tried not to eat much growing up I wouldn’t even go to lunch at school because I was socially awkward. I could eat sweets growing up and burn off the fat quick but as I got older my metabolism caught up with me.
I got married early and went through a horrible divorce I lost a lot of weight after that. Of course I did it the wrong way by laxatives when I would eat, excessive exercise, and not eating. I was miserable but happy because I shed about 80 pounds in four months. I did it the wrong way and it caught up with me after eating the way I once did. I gained the weight back gradually. There for a while I was still using laxatives it cost me some major health problems. I one day made a promise to a person not to use them. I find it difficult not to use them but I don’t want to break a promise.
That brings me today I am overweight and can’t stand it. The day I start my quest I go to work to be faced with brownies and snicker bars on a desk. I am not giving up though.